Well friends i have a big announcement to make! No i’m not pregnant hehe, but if you follow me on twitter and have been wondering why i’ve been sounding like such a stress bucket for the last few days, here’s why:
We’re going home. After 5 wonderful, amazing, joyful, unbelievably eventful years living here in the USA, we’ve decided to move back to Perth to be closer to our families.
It’s been a hard decision. A really hard one. Also kind of a scary one. I won’t lie. One we agonized over. and over and over. As much as we’ve always called Australia “home”, America is where we built our life together, where we started our family and where we followed our dreams. We have been so so blessed here. I’m a mixed bag of emotions right now – flipping between sadness that we are leaving our friends and a place we love, and incredible joy that we will soon be home. In perfect honesty, I think it would always be better for us financially and career wise to stay in the states – but our families aren’t here, and for that reason I think we were always going to come home at some point. This is a little sooner than we’d planned – but we’ve reached that stage where it’s just too heartbreaking to be so far from them. We’ve realised how unbelievably important it is for our kids to have their grandparents involved in their lives in a bigger way. Instead of once or twice year – after which they look out the window for days asking where they’ve gone, and why they can’t see them. I haven’t seen my brother in 5 years (he’s in the army), and he has never met my kids. It’s something I don’t talk about much, because to be honest, it’s too heartbreaking. We’ve always believed in putting family first, and this is one of those situations where it’s most real for us.
So right now we’re a little hectic over here. We move in a few weeks, and with the thought of an international move ahead of me, I admit I feel a little panicked. I wish I could have told you all sooner, but I didn’t know sooner. I like to have everything perfectly planned and mapped out ahead of me, and that’s kind of impossible right now. But I’m trusting that as always, God has this planned – just like when we spontaneously came to the US, everything will turn out the way it should.
So that’s whats going on with me! It’s all kind of blowing my mind it’s happening so fast, but every time i get overwhelmed (which is every 5 minutes) i just keep focusing on the moment someday soon, when Bunny asks if she can go see her grandparents, as she constantly does, and I can finally say yes. Lets go. This afternoon. The thought of that makes me want to cry with joy!
(ps. did i mention the weather? because you know that’s gonna be awesome hehe)